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Sunday, April 23, 2006

I Magician - Meanings (a selection of interpretations)

MEANINGS - What do others say?

Osho Zen Tarot (OZT), St. Martin's Press
"You are not accidental.  Existence needs you.  Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it."

The Mythic Tarot (TMT), Juliet Sharman-Burke & Liz Greene
"Hermes...called the Trickster...child of both spiritual light and primordial darkness...a mixture of earthly passions and spiritual clarity... Somewhere within us, no matter how lost or confused we might be... something has foresight and resources..which can divine what direction to take and what choices to make.  Hermes points to potential skills and creative abilities which have not yet manifested. He may appear as an upsurge of energy and an intuition of exciting new opportunities."

Mythic Tarot Workbook (MTW), Juliet Sharman-Burke

"The Magician stands for the inner guide who firmly yet kindly prompts us to develop and fulfill our potential.  He offers opportunities in the area of feeling (Cups), creative imagination (Wands), intellect (Swords) and of the material world (Pentacles).

Revelations Tarot Companion (RTC), Zach Wong
"He brings together all the elements as he is the catalyst of all.  He is the energy that drives; the one who sparks interest...a witty individual who is at home with his or her surrounds..highlights the characteristics of intelligence, leadership, self-management and self-understanding... embodies the individual who begins all projects."

Da Vinci Enigma Tarot (DVET), Caitlin Matthews
"Skill, mastery, self-confidence are yours.  You have the ability to bring things into manifestation through your skills and abilities. If you yoke clear intention and willpower to dexterity and concentration, you can achieve your plan.  By adaptation, flexibility and wit, your charismatic charms can make magic."

Lover's Path Tarot (LPT), Kris Waldherr
"Developing magic within yourself...Self-empowerment and actualization. A yearning to grow beyond perceived limitations. The ability to transform your life through originality and personal power."

The Celtic Tarot (CT), Helena Paterson
"...changes taking place around the querent are sometimes difficult to understand, but are instigated by an inner desire to come to terms with a situation...also referred to as "the juggler"...a title which provides another image of events and actions being carefully staged to create an illusion."

A Guide to the Celtic Dragon Tarot (GCD), D.J.Conway & Lisa Hunt
"Self-control; learning magick... you are discovering how to use magick, faith and will-power to get what you need and desire."

The Lover's Tarot (TLT), Jane Lyle
"...linked with language, communication, alchemy and control of one's destiny... The Magician often appears when you have accepted yourself on some level and are feeling balanced."

The Druidcraft Tarot (DCT), Philip and Stephanie Carr-Gomm
"The Magician knows the secrets of creation - he knows  how to open himself to the two aspects of Divine creative energy...inspiration and life-force. He knows how to let these forces flow through him into the world, directed by his consciousness and will."

Tarot Journaling (TJ), Corrine Kenner
(using Waite's "Pictorial Key to the Tarot")
"Skill, diplomacy, self-confidence, will, mastery, showmanship, and a reminder of the esoteric maxim "As above, so below.""

Tarot Reversals (TR), Mary K. Greer
"This is the card of 'me, myself, and I,' old 'numero uno,' the self or ego... It is about focused consciousness, concentrating your will on a task, backed up by tools, skills, and abilities."

Learning the Tarot (LT), Joan Bunning
"...the archetype of the active, masculine principle - the ultimate achiever. He symbolizes the power to tap universal forces and use them for creative purposes...His abilities appear magical at times because his  will helps him achieve what seem to be miracles... he is not afraid to act."

Learning Tarot Reversals (LTR), Joan Bunning
"Time for action.  You can do what needs to be done.  Having conscious awareness is important.  Your concentration level is high..."

Choice-Centered Tarot (CCT), Gail Fairfield
"...appears when you are aware that several different perceptions of reality exist...Your personal reality may not be the same as the collective reality."

Power Tarot (PT), Trish MacGregor & Phyllis Vega
"As an alchemist and transformer, he epitomizes the ability to translate ideas into action. He relies on self-confidence, power, and determination to see him through."

The Heart of the Tarot (HT), Sandra Thompson, Robert Mueller, Signe Echols
"...an enigmatic figure. As a showman and a creator of illusions, he may simply be another aspect of the Fool... the Fool after he has encountered his own teacher and become a little more sophisticated, more in control of his transformational abilities...He carries the message that 'real magic' consists in confident action based on principles of self-transformation.  His theme is 'focused attention that leads to creativity and insight.'"

Tarot Dictionary & Compendium (TDC), Jana Riley
"Doing it anyway.  Receiving energy, signs and answers on the physical plane in the form of synchronization, coincidences, magic, and miracles."

Tarot For Your Self (TYS), Mary K. Greer
"Singleness of purpose. Commitment. Being in control...Skill. Manual ability. Craftiness. Cunning...organizational skills. Manipulating nature and others to harness their energies. Magical or occult powers."

How to Read Tarot Cards (RTC), Doris Chase Doane & King Keyes
"...will power...triumph through analysis...mind over matter...take the initiative"

A Complete Guide to the Tarot (CGT), Eden Gray
"The Magician represents Man's will in union with the Divine achieving the knowledge and power to bring desired things into manifestation through conscious self-awareness."

Super Tarot (ST), Sasha Fenton
"A new opportunity and chance to shine...independence, self-reliance and self-motivation...may indicate freelance work and self-employment."

Tarot For All Seasons (TFAS), Christine Jette
"Focus/Lack of Focus.  Being able to prioritize and make a choice; being able to focus your energy effectively to accomplish your goals; the ability to visualize your goals clearly; discovering the creator within... at the worst, the Magician is dishonest about motives and can be destructive in relationships."

Friday, April 21, 2006

I Magician - Symbolism

Color Symbolism (meanings are my own impressions - what they say to me):
red (UW, MT, RT) - passion, will
white (UW, OZ, MT, RT) - purity of spirit
yellow (UW) - conscious thought
indigo blue (OZ) - emotional centeredness
light brown (MT, DVE) - groundedness, earthy
green (RT, OZ) - growth, generative energy, living earth

Number Symbolism:
I - beginnings, self

Text, titles, writing on card:
All cards are called The Magician, except for the Osho Zen card, which is called Existence.

Astrological Correspondences:
Mercury - planet closest to the sun, this planet governs communication styles, thought processes, understanding and the ability to see, as well as travel and movement.  Physically, Mercury rules the arms, hands, lungs, tongue and nervous system.

Hermes (the Magician who appears on the Mythic Tarot card) is the Greek name for the god Mercury.

Animal Symbolism:
snake - seen as a snake belt (UW) and in a pair as part of a caduceus (MT). Generally associated with wisdom and regeneration (as snakes shed their skin). As an ouroboros, it is associated with Gnosticism and Alchemy and symbolizes eternity, cycles, immortality, completion and Oneness.  In the caduceus, it is associated with duality, diplomacy, inventiveness, healing and Hermetic magic.

dove - seen carved on the Magician's table (UW), and flying overhead (RT).  Associated with Spirit, diplomacy, innocence and peace.

Elements Depicted:
Air - swords
Earth - pentacles
Water - cups
Fire - wands
Spirit - dove

The Magician symbolizes mastery of the elements, so all are depicted equally.

Other symbols/details:
posture - as above, so below (UW, MT)
infinity symbol (sideways figure eight) - (UW, RT)
red roses - desire, will, passion (UW)
white lilies - pure thought, reason (UW)
cross-roads - sacred space used for magical ritual.  In ancient Greece, statues of Hermes were erected at cross roads, along with statues of Hecate (MT)

I Magician - Putting them in order

If I were going to put these five Magician cards in some kind of order, I'd arrange it like this:

Osho Zen 1: Existance - the very first step to controling your environment is the realization that your most fundamental tool is yourself, and the realization that you're a part of the universe you seek to change.

Universal Waite Tarot I: The Magician - this Magician has learned to manipulate the elements using a structured form of ritual.  Often, when we first learn a skill we have to carefully follow the 'rules' to make sure we get it right.  Young cooks follow recipes, more experienced cooks can be more intuitive because they have a deep understanding of how each element actually works. This Magician seems to be very rules based to me.

Mythic Tarot: The Magician - this Magician is also following established rules but he is bringing in a more spiritual basis to it - he understands that he is not merely using tools, but connecting to spirit. He has remembered the fact of the Osho Zen card - that he is deity.  He respects that truth by standing on the sacred space of the cross-roads.

Revelations Tarot I: The Magician - This Magician is actively using his tools and has gained age, if not necessarily wisdom.  With the power to actively manipulate the elements to manifest one's will comes the danger that this power can be misused.  It shows in this Magician's face that he is familiar with this and has experienced a time or two when he's used his magic for less than stellar reasons.  This Magician has actual power and because of that, is potentially more dangerous.

Da Vinci Enigma Tarot I: The Magician - here is the aged Magician who has learned both skill and wisdom.  He no longer needs to make a display of his powers or his tools - his power to manifest his will in a consciously applied manner show in his face - he's now internalized it.  He can remember times of learning new skills, and has experienced the results of actions taken wisely and unwisely, and as a result he can see deeply into the hearts and motives of others.  He can create whatever he wants, but he has learned that sometimes it's best not to. He knows much more than he's telling because he realizes that some things have to be learned by each one of us in our own way and our own time.

I: The Magician - Descriptions

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Deck 1:  Universal Waite Tarot
Card: I: The Magician

Description: 

A man with chin-length black hair is wearing a white forehead circlet, a white gown and a red robe.  The white gown is cinched at the waist with a silver belt in the shape of a snake eating its own tail (an ouroboros, which usually symbolizes eternity and the cycle of life from conception to birth to life, to death, to rebirth) with red ruby eyes.

The Magician is standing facing front with his left hand pointed toward the ground and his right hand holding a white want with points on both ends toward the sky ("as above, so below").  A sideways figure eight (eternity symbol) is hanging over his head and a white aura surrounds his entire body.  He has a tiny  smile on his face and looks calm and confident and as if he is enjoying himself.

In front of the Magician, on a wooden table carved with symbols (hard to see what they are, but I think one of them is a dove?), tools of the elements are laid out - a wand, a sword, a cup and a pentacle.  In front of the table, red roses and white lilies are growing tangled together and over the Magician's head, more red roses are growing, as if he is standing underneath a bower. The sky behind is bright yellow.

This card depicts ceremonial magic - the Magician is in a standard posture, using tools that would be familiar to anyone working with ceremonial magic.  He appears competent and familiar with the process of what he's doing and is neither nervous nor overblown about it.

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Deck 2:  Osho Zen
Card: I: Existence

Description:

This is an entirely different take on this card's concept!  The card depicts a deep blue sky full of stars and nebulae with a shooting star.  In the lower portion of the card, a lotus leaf rises from somewhere unseen and a nude woman, back turned, is sitting in lotus position, apparently gazing at the stars.  She has long, dark hair streaming down her back.  The card's title is "Existence" and the overall mood is far more receptive than the traditional Magician - here, nothing needs to be DONE. The woman's power comes simply from what IS.

I am often not entirely comfortable with the Magician - I don't exactly know why (and hope to figure that out while I'm working with this card), but this one always fills me with relief.  If the standard Magician says that I can use power to manifest my will, the Osho Zen version tells me where that power comes from - that by existing, I am a part of the universe and can be a conduit for its energy.

The woman, even seen only from behind, seems to be very much at peace with herself, her surroundings and her place in it.  There is no planet visible - she is out in the Universe with the stars, not seeing them through the filter of atmosphere and as out of place as a lotus leaf might be in space, she appears to be very much at home there.  It is a beautiful card.


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Deck 3:  The Mythic Tarot
Card: The Magician

Description:

On this card, the Magician is depicted by Hermes, wearing a white tunic with a red over tunic held together at his right shoulder with a gold pin.  He is stand in the same position as the UW Magician, but he is not holding a wand (instead, he is pointing upward with his finger) and his arms are switched - left hand up, right hand down.

Hermes is standing at a cross-roads behind a large rock that is serving as an altar.  The four paths leading away from the center are winding their way through a hilly, barren terrain.  Nothing living is seen except for Hermes himself.  On the stone altar, a sword and a caduceus created with a lit torch twined with a pair of snakes (a symbol of Hermes and used by medical professionals) are arranged so that they cross one another, along with a golden cup and a golden pentacle. 

Hermes has a distant expression on his face, as if he is looking inward or away in the distance and his head is cocked slightly to the left as if he is listening to something.  He also looks slightly concerned (or maybe just deeply concentrating) - he still looks competent and skilled at what he's doing, but he is not necessarily enjoying it as much as the UW Magician.

It may be that Hermes, as a god, has a more serious attitude toward the responsibility and risk of working with magic?


01_4Deck 4: Revelations Tarot
Card: I: The Magician

Description:

This deck frustrates me - the colors really appeal to me but the images take much closer examination to glean what is going on.

The most immediate impression is the green of the background, and the splash of red in the middle of the card, surrounding white.  The upright Magician, with dark hair and a streak of grey wears a woven white undergarment covered with a red robe with loose sleeves. 

Over the Magician's head is the sideways figure eight, and s/he carries a sword on his back, and a forehead circlet with a pentacle.  The left hand is pouring liquid from a gold cup that is spilling frothy white in the center of the card, and the left hand is grasping a long wand wrapped in white cloth.  At the top of the wand, a dove is flying (so that must be a dove I was seeing carved on the UW card's table).  The Magician is staring intently straight ahead with a face that seems to be concentrating and full of self-will. 

In the reversed position, the Magician's robe is more of a deep purple and his hair is completely grey except for a streak of white.  He is facing sideways to his/her left, looking into the steaming contents of his cup, which is held close to his face.  In his right hand is a wand, much more gnarled than the upright Magician's.  A sword is also strapped onto his back and he wears the pentagram circlet.  The sideways figure-eight is much mistier than that of the upright Magician.

The green background appears to be the ground seen from a distance from directly above, as you'd see it if you were flying overhead. On the reversed Magician's side of the card, it is far less cultivated in appearance than on the upright side, which shows squares of crops and others signs of human manipulation of the land.

In the case of this card, the Magicians are actively using the tools of the elements rather than having them arranged before them.  The reversed Magician seems to be older and more inwardly focused than the upright Magician.  The facial expression, especially on the upright Magician seems craftier than the others - here I can plainly see the concept of the Magician as one who might be negatively manipulative and deceptive.

This one is reflecting the properties of the Magician that make me uncomfortable with it.

Deck 5: Da Vinci Enigma
Card: I: Magician

Description:

A sepia toned chalk drawing, done in red chalk, of Leonardo da Vinci himself.  He is aged with a balding head and long grey hair and a beard.  His mouth is stern and his eyes are deepset and penetrating.  He is looking of slightly to the left.

This is a very famous self-portrait and it's appropriate to regard da Vinci, artist, mathematician and inventor, as a Magician.  His life was spent learning how to manipulate and create tools, and to manifest his ideas and to use his  skills not only as a creative force but to improve his personal life.

I have no opinion about the whole 'code' thing - as far as I can tell the bruhaha is about a work of fiction that wasn't very well written that caused shock and dismay about a group of people who aren't ideologically inclined to understand what 'fiction' is. I haven't read it, yet.

But ignoring that, what we know of da Vinci's life and his work is impressive enough that I am comfortable with the idea of bestowing upon him the title of Magician.   I like that this portrait shows him in his later years, after he has mastered most of his skills.  The Magician, even though it comes early in the deck, isn't the card of an apprentice but of one who has mastered the elements and himself.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

0: The Fool - Living Foolishly

Actions to take inspired by this card:

- Deliberately do something today differently than how you normally do it.  Notice how it feels - uncomfortable? Liberating?  Embarrassing?

- Do something today that you've been interested in but haven't yet made the leap because you're afraid you can't do it.  Just jump, already!

- Go for a walk around your neighborhood and take notice of details you've never paid attention to before.

- Write with your non-dominant hand. 

- Change a recipe for something you make often - try a new ingredient or a different method of preparation.

- Make a fruit fool for dessert.

- Watch a funny movie or TV show.

- Play with a toy you loved as a child.

- Take a trip to a part of town you've never visited before - what's in your local area that you didn't know about?

- Buy some craft supplies and spend time using them without worrying about 'making' something.

- Bring a bouquet of white roses into your home.

- Spend time with your dog today or, if you don't have one, go visit a shelter.  If you can't keep a pet, can you help care for these?

- Find a child and spend some time together playing - get down on the floor with them and experience life from their point of view.

- Play "Fluxx" a card game where the rules change constantly according to the actions of the players.  This is a great game for groups of people who aren't taking things too seriously because the constant changes keep it challenging, but it's lighthearted enough not to interrupt the socializing.

- Have a child's party for you and your adult friends.  Bring favorite toys, have children's food - pizza decorated to look like a happy face, ice cream sundaes with all the toppings...  Play games like pin the tail on the donkey and provide hula hoops, Twister and jump ropes.  Maybe dress up in your pajamas and play Truth or Dare or give each other manicures. Put "The Wizard of Oz" on play "Dark Side of the Moon" to see if they really are synchronized.  The key thing here is to play together and not worry about how silly you all look.

- create an altar to your Inner Fool - find small icons that remind you of your childhood, of a new beginning you're about to make (or want to make), of places you've been or places you'd like to be.  Include something that reminds you of something you might be embarrassed if others knew it mattered to you (that first edition Star Trek ornament? put it in there!) and something that makes you laugh.  Set it off with a white rose for innocence and pleasure.   Lay the Fool card in the middle of it and spend time meditating on the qualities of the Fool you'd like to draw into your life.

Got more?  Share your foolish ideas in comments!

0: The Fool - Foolish Prompts

Journaling prompts for future reflection on this card:

- Write about your earliest memory - how does it reflect a journey you're on now?

- List ten things you've begun that you don't know how they'll end.

- Write a letter to yourself as you'll be ten years from now.  What questions do you have for your future self about the things that are unknown to you now? 

- Write a letter to yourself now from the person you'll be ten years from now, explaining what signposts along the way you'll want to watch out for.

- Write the story of your life up to now as if it were a travelogue.  Point out the interesting landmarks, the events worth exploring, the pitfalls to avoid.  if you want, draw a map of the landscape of your life.

- Write about a time when you behaved foolishly - what did you do? How did it make you feel? What did others think about your actions?

- Write about your level of trust in the universe.  Do things tend to work out for you in spite of yourself?  Do crazy things happen to you that you can't foresee?

- Write about someone you know that is crazy (or eccentric, if you like).  What characteristics do they have that lead to that impression?  Give an anecdotal example or two.  Do you admire them? Pity them? Get annoyed by them?

- How do you handle the unknown in your life?  Can you go with the flow, or do you need to find ways to be in control of the situation?

- Write about a time you took an impulsive risk - what happened? Would you do it again, knowing what you know now?  What would you have done differently?

- Write about how you visualized being a grown up when you were a kid.  How does it differ from the grown up you are now?  Were you mistaken, or are there aspects of your childhood vision that you could be pursuing now?

- Examine a white rose closely, experiencing it through as many of your senses as you can.  Write about what you see, feel, smell, taste - even hear.  What memories or other thoughts and feelings does it invoke for you?

- Write about your relationship to a pet - does your animal friend spur you onward into playfulness, warn you away from danger, nip at your heels to nag you, follow you as a loyal companion?  What part do animals play in your personal journey?

- What cliffs are in your life right now?

- If you could be anywhere you wanted to be right now, where would you be?

- Write about a time when you were on the brink of something - how did it feel?  Were you exhilerated by the height and the possibilities, or worried and afraid of falling?  What happened?

- Write about warnings you missed - if only you'd been paying  attention, you'd have known better.  How would the outcome have changed?  Should the outcome have been changed, or did you need to learn by taking the scenic route, stumbles and all?

- Write about what absolute necessities you would want to have with you on a long journey, if you didn't know whether or not you'd find anything along the way.  Remember that what you take will weigh you down, so choose wisely - can items be used for more than one thing or used in ways they weren't originally intended?  Are you only taking into account practical needs, or are you bringing along things that others might regard as frivolous?

- Become the Fool on this card - what are you thinking about? What do you see? What are you feeling? Where have you come from and where are you going?

- Become the white dog on this card - why are you there?  What are you thinking and feeling?  What would you like to be able to tell the Fool?

- Draw a second card at random and consider it along side the Fool - what story does the pair have to tell? Freewrite your impressions of the combination.

- Write a poem about the Fool.  Try a limerick to keep in tune with the funloving nature of this card.

from The Da Vinci Enigma:
What is calling you to follow this new departure?
How does instinct empower you?

from Tarot For Your Self:
In what areas of your life are you operating entirely on faith and trust?
Where are you going?
What are you feeling foolish about?
What would be fun to do if you could do anything you wanted?

Do you have any other Foolish prompt ideas?  I'd love to hear your thoughts in comments.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Easter Egg Spread

My friend R came down for the weekend, to share her birthday with us yesterday and Easter today - the weekend has been a pleasant bubble, suspended outside all the realities we'll have to deal with come tomorrow and for the most part (other than eruptions of the sort that happen all the time in this rowdy family) it was pleasant and sociable.

My older daughter, J, made her a cake and last night we colored eggs - J insisting she didn't want to, and then sitting at the table with us and doing her share.  My younger daughter, D, worked carefully on hers, doing a sort of spongepainting thing that made the eggs look tie dyed.

Later, after everyone went to bed, I did Easter basket duties - along with the required candy and plastic eggs full of jelly beans, I tucked in bead bracelets for each of them, a sequined scarf-belt, a couple small craft items and next to their baskets I set a larger item - for J, a set of 10 fancy-border scissors for scrapbooking, and for D, a mini sewing machine, because she's been doing a lot of recycling of her worn out clothing into purses and bags and doing it all by hand. (That little machine was only $20 and she's been having a blast all day with it)

We had a thought this morning that she might want to hunt eggs, but she decided not to (age 12, right on the cusp between childhood and teen and neither we nor she knows which side of that cusp she might be on at any given moment), so the eggs decorated the coffee table for just a short while before they got turned into deviled eggs.

anyway... it was a welcome bit of fun and I after my friend left to make the four hour trip home, I started noodling around with a spread that reminded me of the fun parts of Easter, and the following is what I came up with.  It's not meant to be taken too seriously - just a bit of happy fluff to bring a smile.

Easter Egg Spread

The cards should be arrange to resemble an Easter Egg, with the final card placed in the center:

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Deck Used: Housewives Tarot (via Orphalese - I wanted something whimsical for this reading)

1. Coloring your eggs. - How do you create beauty, joy and  hope in your life?

XIV: Temperance

An electric mixer with mixing bowl, full of fluffy pink.  Surrounding it are four boxes of ingredients, labeled: New Joy - Happiness by the Spoonful, Justice Seasoning, Instant Anger, and Sorrow.

Keywords: "Cooperation * Compromise * Sympathy"
I like the way this card points out that temperance doesn't reject or eliminate anger and sorrow - it combines them with justice and joy to create something tasty.  I 'decorate my eggs' by honoring all aspects of my life, including the negative parts, and dealing with them justly and with joy.

(In spite of the badness of Friday and what is coming in the next few days, this weekend truly was joyful - maybe not even in spite of, but because of.  We don't have to let our anger and sorrow take over even if we can't keep it away right now.)

This was our last holiday together spent as an intact family.  I expect we will have other holidays all together, but not in the same way.  Letting ourselves celebrate that togetherness, even in its passing, was a worthy thing to do.

2. What are you looking for? - What Easter Eggs are hidden from you now?

I: The Magician

A slick salesman in a plaid jacket is smiling and holding his left hand up to display a shiny new front loading washing machine.  His right hand is hidden in his jacket pocket.  In the background, a suburban neighborhood of brick houses and trees is visible.

Keywords: "Illusions * Deception * Charm"

Am I looking for a sales-pitch?  I don't think so... and this connotation is exactly what always makes me uncomfortable with The Magician.  I'll be starting a close examination of The Magician card tomorrow and spend the next couple weeks trying to understand this card better.

Maybe that's all this is about - the positive side of The Magician card is currently hidden from me, and I will need to spend time looking for it.  I think I need to access its strengths (and resist the con-artist aspects of it), and to do that I need to come to terms with it.  I am also going to need to be on sharp lookout against kidding myself with plans and proposed solutions that seem too good to be true, because they probably are.

3. How can you find them? - What do you need to do to uncover them?

Page of Cups

A young boy in red and white striped pajamas and a blue and white paper crown is sprinkling water on a trio of flowers.  The flowers have yellow petals like daisies, but the center of them are faces.  The roots of the flowers are heart-shaped.

Keywords: "Cultivation * Growth * Nurture"
To access an understanding of the traits of the Magician, I am going to need to nurture and water my relationships with others and myself - the key to my ability to use my personal tools in order to manifest my will is always going to be through caring for the emotional growth of myself and those around me.  This isn't news, but I've never thought of it as a power-supply source.  I am going to have to think on this one some more.

4. What's in your basket. - What sweet things have you been given?

Page of Wands

A young boy with a brown paper crown and a cowboy outfit is riding a hobby horse made of a red sponge-mop.  He has a pair of toy guns, one holstered and one in his left hand.  His face is smiling and mischievous and his gaze is looking upward and to the left.

"Imagination * Fun-Loving * Creativity
My sweet treat for the day was indeed the creativity and fun shared with my children and friend, coloring eggs, creating Easter baskets full of goodies that would surprise and appeal to them.  This carried me through what could have been a grim and heartbreaking weekend.

No matter how difficult the weeks and months ahead might get, my children and my ability to enjoy time spent with them will be the biggest thing that sees me through.

5. What will you share? - What good thing from your basket are you willing to share with someone else?

8 of Wands

A dark-haired womon in a blue shirt nd brown capris is riding on a broom through a cloudy sky.  Flying through the air with her are seven other handled cleaning objects - brushes, mops, carpet sweepers, a feather duster, etc.

"Travel * Flight * Growth
I am traveling quickly into my future and it certainly will be a growth experience (she said ruefully) - it's not much occurred to me that this is something I even can share with anyone else, and yet, it is, isn't it?  I have my circle of friends - the people who love me - and I can, and should make sure I let them come along for the ride.

6. Easter grass. - What is the foundation that keeps your gifts from harm?

Knight of Wands

An older boy in jeans and a blue striped t-shirt is riding a red bike.  He is wearing a silver pot on his head for a helmet and wielding a red plunger as if it were a lance.  His expression is determined and intent.  The background is a nondescript beige.

"Exuberance * Mischief * Loyalty
I can keep my gifts (my ability to enjoy time spent with my kids and my friends and to nurture those relationships instead of seeing this time as simply the loss of my relationship with my husband) by...well, by lightening up and not making the mistake of taking everything so seriously that I forget how to have fun and be playful (and yes, that includes a bit of mischievous fun).  That right there is now I can stay loyal to those who have remained loyal to me.  While there is likely to still be some grieving left to do, if I don't turn my life into a tragedy, I can come out of this without permanent harm, to myself or to my children.

7. Rotten Egg? - What's stinking up your life that you need to find and discard?

XVIII: The Moon

A woman in a pink nightgown is sleeping peacefully on a bare, blue-striped mattress.  Shadowy sheep are jumping in an arc in front of her.  A pink calendar is above her on the left of the card, and a pink-lidded jar of cold cream is above on the left.  A very large, smiling yellow moon occupies the center of the card and the background is deep blue cloth with stitched stars and thin, puffy clouds holding up the calendar and the moon.

"Instinct * Intution * Dreams
Interesting - I rarely see the Moon card as anything negative, but in this position this might have to do with the illusion and confusion aspect of this card.  I need to discard any clinging I am doing to my personal nightmares, to seeing what's happening (or my husband himself) through a paranoid or unduly harsh filter.  Hanging onto my fears about the situation really will start to stink if I don't get rid of them - the tendency to see myself as a wronged victim will take away my personal power and my ability to recover from this.

I see, I think.  I need to let go of seeing him as someone in power over me and consciously acting with intent and hurt.  There has been intentional hurt, but it's come from his own fears and perception of himself as without power (why else fight so hard to exert it in negative ways? He's acting as if he's in a life and death battle).  The quicker I can accept and forgive what he wasn't able to do, the quicker I will stop hurting.

Not there yet. But trying. The calendar on the wall of this card tells me that time will heal... the cold cream is a soothing reminder to not worry so much, lest it give me wrinkles (hee).

8. What's ready to hatch? - What's preparing to come into your life?

V: The Hierophant

An old-fashioned, black and white console television displaying a test pattern (a circular shape with a sort of target in the middle of it, with smaller circles at the four corners - the smaller circles are divided into quarters) sits in the center of the card.  The background is an alligator skin textured beige.

Answers * Wisdom * Harsh Truths
Interesting - does this indicate that I may get some answers to the questions I have about all this?  That would be good.. I think.  The test pattern sort of resembles the wheel of fortune to me. 

At a more basic level, the Hierophant sometimes has to do with institutions and conventional philosophies - what is ready to 'hatch' is an encounter with a lawyer who (I hope) can give me some answers at the very least about how to go about this dissolution in a way that causes the least amount of pain and disruption to all of us. 

That TV test pattern used to show up when stations closed down for the night - this card is telling me it's almost time to call it a day.   But that's ok, because there's a new day coming.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Full Moon Spread

Tonight, it's a full moon and she's misty and soft, lighting up the hazy clouds overhead so that the sky is very bright.

This spread is the Full Moon Spread from "Tarot For All Seasons" by Christine Jette.  The deck I used was the Druidcraft Deck, via Orphalese, and I enjoyed working with the images on this deck so much that I've ordered one for my own.

Because I didn't have access to the book that goes with the deck, I decided to take a leap on this one and just record my own thoughts without checking any reference material for meanings.  That feels risky (don't know why - at most, it means I might miss some measure of meaning. It doesn't make it wrong, but it still makes me nervous to let go of the crutch of the LWB, et al).  I'm pretty pleased with the result.

This spread is laid out in a circular fashion, somewhat like a full moon.

1. Relationships: What you need to know now about developing your potential in relationship to others.  The truth of current relationships, be they lover, coworker, family or friend.

Six of Cups

A young man with long hair and a small goatee, dressed in a green tunic, is leaning on a windowsill, looking out at a pair of children playing.  He appears to be relaxed, content and maybe a little wistful and he holds a cup in his his right hand.  The children, meanwhile, are seated on the grass playing with five more cups, filling them with sand or flowers.  The children are engrossed in their play which seems to me to mirror the pouring action of the Temperance card - in their play, they are practicing the wisdom that will mature later into art.  Behind them, wispy clouds fill the blue sky.

The things that strike me about this card is that the man in the foreground is on the inside, looking out.  Nothing can be seen of the room he is in other than that it is dark.  He appears to be mostly content and at peace, but his focus is on the children outside.  The cup in his hand is ready for him to drink, but he is not paying any attention to it - the children, on the other hand, don't appear to be aware of him at all are are paying full attention to each other and to filling the cups they are playing with.  I get the idea that he is the parent - the children look like girls so I don't think they are an image of his past, and yet I think they are reminding him of his own childhood, when he could work with the cups (emotion, especially love) unselfconsciously and fill them full by just imagining that what they fill them with is whatever they want it to be. 

My relationships with others tend to be nostalgic in nature - based in large part on shared history and memories of simpler times together.  What I need to know when it comes to my involvement with others is that we all carry within us the innocent children we once were.  It's hard to be angry or hardhearted to someone if you can see the child they were (I remember reading somewhere a suggestion that you keep a baby picture of the people in your life you were having a hard time with, to remind yourself that they weren't always the grouchy adult you're dealing with now.) and in remembering my own childhood, I can reclaim the ability to love without being cautious or self-conscious or worrying about whether or not I have the right stuff.  In their innocence, these children set their intentions and use whatever they have, coupled with vision and imagination, and so their cups are full to overflowing.

At is most basic level, this card reminds me that my relationships with my own children are where I have the easiest time expressing love - there is no little voice inside that tells me that maybe it isn't safe to love them or unwise to express my love for them.  I can do so freely without all the tangled up notions that sometimes keep me closed off from other people in my life.

2. The Power of Choice: What decision needs to be mde now to fully express your potential? What will free your creativity?

Queen of Pentacles

A barefoot woman wearing a red dress and green cape with a hood sits on a wooden throne covered in Celtic knotwork, animals (oxen, I think) and a pentacle behind her head giving the impression of a sort of halo.  Her left foot is resting on a small rock, while her right foot touches the grass.  The woman is holding a large, shallow drum with a pentacle on the skin in her left hand and is keeping rythmn on it with a bone held in her right.  A gnarled, bare tree is silhouetted in the background and on the ground tehre are white flowers growing and a grey rabbit hopping by.  The sky is the deepening blue of twilight, with yellow light at the horizon.

This is  an enormously earthy and pleasant looking Queen of Pentacles.  She is not classically pretty, but is beautiful and comfortable with herself.  She looks like a mother. Or an aunt. Or that neighbor down the street that shows up with cookies and tea when you're having a bad day and stays around to engage in friendly gossip and make you laugh.  I love that she's holding a drum with a bone drumstick - she's the keep of the heartbeat, speeding it up or keeping it at a steady pace as needed.  Though the conscious energy of the sun is still visible in the sky, it is giving way to the mysteries of the night and the moon.

What does she tell me about how to fully express my potential?  To listen to the rhythms of my heart, to get in touch with the earthy, motherly side of me, to feel the abundance that I have within, and to be comfortable with myself - no need to put on finery and maintain any sort of classic dignity - kick off my shoes, get comfortable and work out my own pattern.  She is also telling me to let go of my conscious, logical mind and open myself up to lunar power - to be receptive to what comes from deep inside my subconscious and intuition.

Practically, I might want to start using music - a good solid beat - as a way to access my creative self.  I enjoy music, but I don't listen to it as often as I'd like, and I've never been much inclined to make music (unless you count singing at the top of my lungs when I'm driving alone in the car).  Purposefully using music to help create an environment for creativity is outside my comfort zone, but maybe that's a good reason to get comfortable with it.


3. Manifesting Goals: What action do you need to take on a physical plane to reinforce your magical workings? What can you do in the mundane world to support your spirit's desire?

Eight of Wands

A young man in a deep blue tunic with red wavy stripes is standing on the grassy flat area at the top of the cliff (very reminiscent of the Fool's cliff).  Below him, a large body of water is visible.  The man is hurling a wand over the cliff. Seven more wands are planted in the ground next time him, ready to be thrown in turn.

Wands are the element of fire - energy and spirit, and this card is telling me that this energy is a tool I can use to manifest my desires, but only if I am willing to put it out there - throw it out into the world ahead of me.  It's not enough to just do internal work and expect that the outer world will notice and respond - before my goals can manifest themselves, I have to supply the power source. 

This card seems to me to be a more active and focused way of getting over the cliff than the Fool's innattentive and trusting way of walking off it without noticing where his feet are.  Instead, he is not only aware of the cliff, he is using this vantage point as a launching pad, using the heights to take his energy farther.  He is also, instead of going over the cliff and falling, sending out his spirit and putting physical force behind it to send it as far as he can.  Here, he's not simply wandering through the environment but applying will and effort to get where he wants to go.

This then is what I need to do - apply some elbow grease and do the work necessary to send out my will - set my intentions - ahead of me to mark the way I want to go.  I've got plenty of it to work with and don't need to worry about it running out if I use it.  That's very hard for me to trust - I tend to hoard my energy like a miser - but if I don't start applying it, it doesn't matter if I have any or not.  It does me no good if I don't use it.  I need to throw it ahead of me and let its fire light my way.

4. Creativity: The Mother has given you talents, abilities, and gifts.  What must you do to fully express them? If you don't like this card, it is because the card shows blocks that you need to address before you can realize your full creative gifts.

Two of Pentacles

A woman is standing at the base of a cliff next to a body of water (the cliff below the card above? Is this where the wands have landed?).  Above her, growing from the side of the cliff is a large gnarled tree trunk.  She is standing on rock, but there is grass nearby.  The water behind her is choppy and there are boats on the water that are either struggling or are sinking.  The sky overhead is very dark and stormy and it appears there are high winds.  There is no suggestion of that wind where the woman stands though.  She is wearing a dress with a rose colored top and a purple skirt, connected by a bronze clasp that looks like a crescent moon, points down.  She has long red hair and she is juggling two pentacles.  However, her face has a detached and calm expression and she is not looking at the coins she juggles - instead she is gazing into the distance, not really seeing anything, or needing to.

The talents I have within me include the ability to juggle various aspects of my life without dropping things and to remain (sometimes) calm and detached  from the storms that surround me.    How does this operate as an expression of creativity?  I'm not really sure - if is a survival skill, for sure, but what does it tell me about expressing my creative self?

I think maybe it is telling me not to try to wait for the right time, the right setting, the perfect moment of peace and quiet to practice a creative life.  I am likely to always have to juggle instead of immersing myself in only one thing.  I am also likely to always have a storm brewing somewhere at people around me flailing at sea. (Why likely? Because it's always been that way, to the point where I am ready to believe that dealing with that mayhem is my life lesson, and I am a long way from having mastered it without struggling against it and yelling 'unfair!')  This either becomes an excuse not to live a creative life, or it becomes simply a companion I need to accept and practice creativity anyway.

In some ways, the constant wildness is a path to creativity.  When everything is smooth sailing and one has the luxury of focusing on only one thing at a time, it's easy to decide not to bother to reach much - everything's already at hand.  But when one has to figure out how to work around, or through, or with, the messiness and noisiness and mulit-tasking shown by this card, one has to figure out new and unexpected ways of keeping all the balls in the air.  That itself is an exercise in creativity, and it builds that skill to create other things as well.

I remember once being fascinated about an acquaintence who was attending college.  She lived in a fairly noisy household, but she was convinced that she needed absolute silence in order to study - not only no talking and no small children running around, but no music, no TV, no... anything.  And her family actually tried to accomodate that, but the whole thing was very frustrating to everyone - the family wasn't able to do much of anything in their own home for large patches of time without incurring her wrath, but in spite of all that honest effort, living beings make some measure of noise, so she was always frustrated and tense about studying, talking herself into thinking she wasn't doing it well enough because of the distractions.

Me? I'd have told her to go to the library if I was a part of the family.  But if I were here, I think it'd have been better if she'd stopped telling herself that she needed that very limited environment in order to do her thing, and learn how to focus in spite of background noise.  We just don't always get the perfect environment we'd prefer and have to make do with what we've got.  Declaring that we can't manage to cope if there's anything around us to have to cope with is...well, unrealistic? Very Princess and the Pea.

5. Protection: Shows where you need to establish personal boundaries so you do not give your power away. What do you need to protect?

Seven of Swords

An elderly man is seated in a stone room at a desk that has a stone base and a wooden top.  The stonework base is elaborately carved with knotwork and a man's face.  On the tabletop is a brass candleholder topped by the same mustachioed face as on the base of the desk and a white candle that looks somewhat like a snack is coiled around the candlestick.  There is also an inkpot and the man is hunched over the desk, a white feather quill in his left hand, writing something.  His right hand is holding his forehead - he appears to be tired, in pain, or deeply concentrating (or all of the above).  Outside the window behind him, a bright moonlit sky is seen, heavily speckled with clouds through which a glowing crescent moon is visible.  In front of the desk is a lower table on which three swords are laying.  Leaning against the table are four more swords, each with its own unique design.

This man seems to be hard at work, concentrating but growing tired and he is working well into the night.  The room he is in is stony and lacking in decorative features (other than the knotwork - and the faces on the desk and the candleholder both look like the man himself - he is featured in the foundation of his workspace, as well as in the working light that illuminates his work) - this is functional space, not aesthetic space.  The swords appear to be more of a collection - possibly objects of study - rather than weapons or tools ready to be used.  Unnoticed by the man, but helping him by providing light, is the crescent moon of intuition and mystery.

This card seems to be about study (swords = intellectual pursuits) and recording what one studies, and the hard work that does into this.  That it appears in a position about setting boundaries makes me think that his tiredness and headachy appearance might be an indication that he's failed to set boundaries for rest and recreation - for looking up and noticing the beauty of the moon as he scribbles away.  No doubt, what he's writing about is important, but being a slave to studying life at the expense of experiencing it isn't worth it.  I think he would learn more, and faster, if he'd turn away from recording his own thoughts - at his desk decorated in his image, but the light of a candle that is wrapped around an image of himself - and look out at the sky and ask himself how such a slim sliver of a crescent moon can provide so much light.

The message to me here is to not get so wrapped up in my own studies (and that may mean my recent attention to tarot itself) that I forget to pay attention to the wider and deeper mysteries of Goddess and the universe.  (Or maybe it's just telling me to go to bed and not stay up all night doing this reading!)

This card reminds me of an old phrase - I don't know the source - "The man wrapped up in himself makes a very small package."  I think I need to be reminded, perhaps, not to diminish my power by setting my boundaries so narrowly that all they include is me.  And to put down the pen once in awhile and go live life instead of just studying it.

6. Psychic Gifts: How can you best develop your intuition? If this is a court card, it suggests the appearance of a teacher, guide or mentor.

Princess of Swords

A darkhaired woman dressed in a flowing blue dress with a deeper blue cape and a circlet of blue flowers is standing on a rocky area surrounded by heather, snowdrops  and other wildfllowers.  The wind appears to be blowing.  She is holdng a sword, point down, near her shoulder and a length of blue ribbon from her dress is wrapped around it, binding it to her.  She is gazing at the sword steadily and with intention.  Behind her a bird is flying by and the sky is pale yellow and filled with large yellow-tinged clouds as though the sun is low in the sky - either sunrise or sunset.  Her feet are bare.

How can I best develop my intuition? It seems to be through intellectual pursuit - she is binding the sword of intellect to herself.  And this is, indeed, a court card, so it suggests a mentor or guide of some sort - possibly a younger woman who can teach me the intellectual background necessary to channel intuitive skillbuilding.

I've signed onto a few mailing lists and started following a couple forums devoted to tarot and pagan ideas.  As a whole, they do act as teachers and it may be that someone may become more specifically a mentor.  I do have a habit of approaching intuitive things from an intellectualized standpoint (this and the previous card are both suggesting this) and perhaps someone can help me get past that, because I think this is something that doesn't gain much by staying in the intellectualized arena.

7. Blessings and Spiritual Direction: The Mother wants you to celebrate the joy of being alive.  What do you have to be thankful for? How can you best express the Goddess in you?

XIX: The Sun

A young boy with a face much older than his apparent years, is riding a greyish-white horse with a wavy mane and an elaborate golden halter covered in tapestry streamers and a golden sun symbol in the front.  The boy is naked and is standing in the stirrups and there are yellow rays of light surrounding his head like a halo. Hanging from the saddle is a small harp.  The horse is walking through a field of tall grass and wildflowers and there is some kind of rocky structure away in the distance.

What a lovely blessing - no less than the sun itself.  Light, radiance, clarity - this is a card that embodies a victorious joy of being alive.  What do I have to be thankful for? Life. Truth.  The bright light of honest understanding and vision.  How can I express the Goddess in me?  By shining... by claiming my own truth and not hiding it, or myself.

Here, then, is a child as there was in the first card - but this child isn't role playing, isn't going to outgrow his innocence, isn't practicing power - he is power, and his innocence comes from the purity of one who isn't carrying any lies with him.  He has a harp, perhaps to accompany the rhythm of the Queen of Pentacles drum, adding melody to her beat? 

He isn't carrying anything - no wands needed because the fiery energy of wands emanates from within him.  No swords of intellect because carries ever bit of knowledge there is inside and lives what most people only learn about.  This is the outcome and direction - accept no less than a full embodiment of the elements within me and let them shine out in truth from me without hiding them away.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

0: The Fool - Foolish Quotations

Life is a dream for the wise, a game for the fool, a comedy for the rich, a tragedy for the poor.
~ Sholom Aleichem

You can have everything you want as long as you don't want it badly enough.
~ Yogi Berra

The best way to convince a fool that he is wrong is to let him have his own way.
~ Josh Billings

The fool who persists in his folly will become wise.
~ William Blake

All the wonders you seek are within yourself.
- Sir Thomas Browne

The great pleasure of a dog is that you may make a fool of yourself with him and not only will he not scold you, but he will make a fool of himself too.
~ Samuel Butler

Failure is unimportant. It takes courage to make a fool of yourself.
~ Charlie Chaplin

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
wich is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
~ e.e. cummings

Only a fool expects to be happy all the time.
~ Robertson Davies

The fool wonders, the wise man asks.
~ Benjamin Disraeli

We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
~ T.S. Eliot

What lies beyond us and what lies before us are tiny matters when compared to what lies within us.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Draw your chair up close to the edge of the precipice and I'll tell you a story.
~ F. Scott Fitzgerald

The fool wanders, a wise man travels.
~  Thomas Fuller

It is a fool's prerogative to utter truths that no one else will speak.
~ Neil Gaiman

Whatever you can do or dream, begin it.  Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it.
~ Goethe

The greatest obstacle to being heroic is the doubt whether one may not be going to prove one's self a fool; the truest heroism is to resist the doubt; and the profoundest wisdom, to know when it ought to be resisted, and when it be obeyed.
~  Nathaniel Hawthorne

When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So what the hell, leap.
~ Cynthia Heimel

He dares to be a fool, and that is the first step in the direction of wisdom.
~ James Gibbons Huneker

If I make a fool of myself, who cares? I'm not frightened by anyone's perception of me.
~  Angelina Jolie

If one does not understand a person, one tends to regard him as a fool.
~ Carl G. Jung

To dare is to lose one's footing momentarily.  To not dare is to lose oneself. 
~ Soren Kiekegaard

A wise man fights to win, but he is twice a fool who has no plan for possible defeat.
~ Louis L'Amour

My imagination makes me human and makes me a fool; it gives me all the world and exiles me from it.
~ Ursula K. Le Guin

Trust no future, howe'er pleasant
Let the dead past bury its dead!
Act, -- act in the living present!
Heart within and god o'erhead.
~ H.W. Longfellow

For fools rush in where angels fear to tread.
~ Alexander Pope

There is only one journey.  Going inside yourself.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke

You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
~ Eleanor Roosevelt

Afoot and lighthearted I take to the open road,
Healthy, free, the world before me.
~ Walt Whitman

0: The Fool - Aspects

Ok, this was fun.  I brainstormed a bunch of aspects - questions or specific areas where the Fool might land in a spread, and then answered each one as if I'd drawn the Fool there.  Mind, these are still just general comments and only what I came up with for the moment - in a real spread they'd be modified according to the surrounding cards, the overall tone of the spread and my own attitude that day.

But as an exercise? Fun!

What message might The Fool hold in the area of...

Situations and Problems -

Situation - How does this card reflect my current problem or situation?

The Fool indicates that the current situation requires a leap of faith - an entirely new and unexpected path has opened up, and you don't know where it's leading.  This situation is going to require you to trust your instincts and be willing to appear foolish.

Challenge - How does this card reflect a potential challenge to the situation?

The challenge here is to be able to proceed without being able to see the path ahead, which can be scary if you're used to being in control of the situation.  You may need to act regardless of the opinions of others and regard the journey as meaningful as the destination - remember that every step is a learning experience for those willing to pay attention.  Do make sure that you're not being naïve about the risks involved.

Solution - How does this card reflect a potential solution to the situation?

Try an unorthodox approach that feels right instead of overanalyzing the problem.  Trust your instincts and try something off the beaten path.  Stop being so serious and do something silly - it might provide inspiration that serious analysis has failed to provide.

Attitude - How does this card speak to my attitude or response to the situation?

Your attitude right now is that of a person following the beat of their own drum.  You not only aren't listening to what anyone else thinks of the situation, you don't even hear them.  You're enjoying the open road ahead and are willing to experience whatever comes.  You're approaching the unknown with a playful attitude and don't have any serious concerns about the outcome - you're just enjoying the scenery along the way.

Time -

The Past - where have I been?

In the past, you've been inclined to be a wanderer through life, letting whatever happens happen without trying to set a course or determine any particular destination.  You may have made some 'foolish' choices that didn't make much sense to anyone else, but things always seem to work out one way or another.

The Present - where am I now?
You're on the brink of a brand new era of your life, with little idea of where you're heading.  There isn't much from your life so far that will help you in this new direction - you're going to have to start over with little but your own instincts.  Watch out for pitfalls that come from not paying attention to what you're doing, but trust in yourself and the world around you and know that if you listen to your heart, you'll be fine.

The Near Future - what is the next step I might take?

Try something different from what you'd normally be inclined to do.  Take risks and step beyond your comfort zone - go ahead and talk to the stranger that interests you instead of holding back, apply for the job that intrigues you that you're not sure you can do.  Trust yourself and remember that your dreams should 'exceed your grasp' - reach out for them if you want them to come true, and don't forget to have fun along the way.

The Long-term Future - what's ahead?

Your future is wide open to you - what happens will depend entirely on your own willingness to take risks and be yourself rather than what everyone else thinks you ought to be.  If you trust your own instincts, you will likely be seen as someone a little 'crazy' but you'll be happier than if you play it safe.  All doors are open to you - you just have to be willing to take that first step.

Self -

Body - what is this telling me about my body or my health?

If what you're doing now isn't working for you, try something you haven't considered before.  Standard knowledge doesn't always have all the answers - consider more holistic methods of keeping well.  Experiment safely, but be mindful of quacks and resist the inclination to put all the power over your own health into the hands of others.  Bring more humor into your life - laughter really is the best medicine.

Mind - what is this telling me about my thoughts and opinions?

You tend to have unorthodox opinions, at least according to those around you - they may even regard your ideas as naïve or overly-idealistic.  You sometimes have flashes of insight that appear as if out of nowhere - you can't explain how you came to your conclusions, but you instinctively understand things even without the knowledge or experience to 'show your work.'  You base your ideas on what feels right to you rather than sticking to what the so-called experts have to say.  You tend to find humor in situations and ideas that others take seriously.

Spirit - what is this telling me about my relationship to spirituality and beliefs?

Your base your spirituality on what feels right and approach it from an an exploratory basis, rather than being driven by any particular goal or outcome.  You may be prone to alternative forms of spirituality and prefer to keep an open mind rather than confining you to any rigid set of dogma or ritual.  Your spiritual beliefs are rooted in trust that the universe is essentially good and that you will be protected from deep harm as long as you act with purity and follow your heart.  You may be lacking in much deep knowledge of the details of your chosen spiritual path, believing and doing things 'just because' and you may have a tendency to take spiritual guidance from others without practicing discernment about their knowledge or character - can you say gullible?  You may have very eclectic spiritual ideas that you've gathered from a number of spiritual philosophies without having committed deeply to any of them.

Heart - what is this telling me about my emotional concerns?

Emotionally, you may be so wrapped up in your own issues that you are blind to the concerns of others.  Your emotions tend to be unstable and based almost entirely on what's happening to you right this moment and they may express themselves in ways that make little sense to those around you.  You have a trusting, possibly overly-trusting nature, and unhappy experiences might hit you hard because you haven't developed much in the way of experience to help you avoid unhappy situations - even if you've gone through this before, it hits you as if for the first time each time it happens. In the same way, positive experiences fill you with a sense of wonder, as if it is happening for the first time.  Your emotional responses swing widely from high to low and back again, depending on what you're currently experiencing.

Hopes - how does this card speak to my hopes?

You are hoping that an unknown path ahead of you will prove to an opportunity to soar.  You hope that your instincts will prove to be beneficial to you.  You hope most of all that whatever you choose to explore will be open and available to you and that you won't be forced to settled down and commit to a particular course of action.

Fears - how does this card speak to my fears?

You fear that you are about to make a foolish decision or that others will regard your actions as silly and naïve.  You're afraid of 'making a fool of yourself' which may make you overly sensitive to the opinions of others (mistakenly regarding negative opinions as decrees to do things their way and forgetting that you're in charge of your own choices) and too worried about losing your dignity.  You are afraid that others are laughing at you or that you're missing a part of the picture that will keep you from taking an undignified spill.

Significator - how does this card define who I am?

You are a unique and original thinker who tends to be offbeat, optimistic and willing to act without knowing exactly where you're going or how you'll get there.  You may tend to be flighty and flaky and a drifter through life, starting one project after another and then stopping after you lose interest - for you, the important part is the journey and the process, not the completed outcome.  You are highly instinctive in your actions but may sometimes appear thoughtless and naïve.  Sometimes, your trusting nature takes a fall, but you regard those situations as flukes and continue to trust that everything will work out as it should.

Areas of Daily Life -

Work/Career - what is this telling me about my working life?

Your job either tends to be one regarded as odd, or is one that your pursue in an unusual way.  It might involve travel to exotic places or require you to react on your feet without having the time or ability to learn much about the situation in advance.  You may experiment with new ways of doing your tasks that keep them fresh and fun and your coworkers may mistake this playfulness with goofing around until they notice that your methods do seem to get you where you want to go.  You might be the person at work that plays practical jokes on others, or turn normal days into a party - you keep the comic strips on your wall and the silly ornaments on your desk and you always have a funny comment to make in the middle of a serious discussion that breaks the tension - just be careful about not turning into a clown or won't be taken seriously when you need to be.

If you're looking for work, explore careers that you may not have thought of doing before, or brainstorm ways to create a job for yourself that doesn't exist.  You will likely be happiest with a job that doesn't have a regular routine, so that every day is new and different from the one below.  If travel is involved, you will enjoy the opportunity to explore new places and will thrive in a position where your instincts are more important than experience or knowledge.

Finances - what is this telling me about my financial concerns?

The Fool is all about speculation and taking risks - you may be prone to gambling more than you can afford to lose, and you're not very good at sitting down and planning or documenting your expenditures. 

Try setting a budget so you don't find yourself overdrawn unexpectedly, but make sure to block in some money to play with or you'll feel overly constrained and give up following your budget.  Be open and alert to creative ways to manage your finances - you may see an opportunity that others find too risky or foolish to pursue, but if your instincts are telling you to go ahead, give it a try.

Don't take the pursuit of money too seriously - as long as you have enough to cover your basic needs, you would do better to spend your energy on pursuits that are fun and enjoyable - stop to smell the roses rather than just acquiring as many of them as you can.

Romance - what is this telling me about my romantic relationships and attitudes?

Romantically, you or your partner may not be inclined to make a long-term commitment, favoring instead a one-day-at-a-time approach.  The long term outlook for the partnership is unknown and depends on the choices you make along the way.  While serious conversations about your future and settling down make you itchy, you have a lot of fun together, sharing a childlike pleasure in games, humor and playing harmless tricks on one another - it may drive your partner nuts that they can't pin you down, but you do keep each other laughing.  Once the fun is gone, though, you're likely to be on your way.

The fool also indicates some tendency to be naïve and impulsive in your relationship choices - you may become involved with someone who takes advantage of your innocence and trust, and friends may be concerned that you're playing the fool about the nature of your relationship.  You see your partner in ways that others don't see, but be careful that you're not ignoring vital aspects of their character that could be hazardous to you.

The relationship itself may be very unusual by conventional standards and incorporate playful, role playing elements that others regard as strange.  Playful kink, polyamorous groupings, friends with bed privileges all are influenced by the quirky fool's tendency to approach romance in unexpected ways.

Other relationships - what is this telling me about my non-romantic relationships?

You're the friend who is never on time, doesn't take things seriously and always seems to be on the verge of a great disaster that somehow never happens - "Heaven protects children and fools" and your friends worry about you more than they should, because things always seem to work out for you in the end.  You enjoy your friends and relate to them primarily by good times and shared recreation, but you may not be the best person to go to when someone needs to have a serious heart-to-heart discussion or to get practical assistance.  But that's ok - others can help do the mundane things and you'll be there to cheer everyone up.

As a parent, you're sometimes more like a pal or a child than someone in authority.  Lorelei Gilmore is a Foolish parent, often encouraging her child to be more playful or to play pranks, and yet she still instills a sense of 'you can do anything' vision into her daughter.  This parent doesn't follow the experts' advice and sometimes other parents (or even their children) will judge them as bad parents, but their children develop strong creative resources and the knowledge that they are protected and loved as they go out into the world on their own journey.

As a child, this is the kid that's always laughing and exploring - the mischevious kid that doesn't seem to understand why anyone would ever get mad about something they meant in good fun.  This is the toddler that is balanced on the back of the couch on tiptoe - the one you're sure is going to break every bone in his body except he rarely seems to actually hurt himself.  Even when he does, he takes the bumps and bruises lightly and impatiently waits for you to patch him up so he can get back to his explorations.  This kid will keep you jumping, but he'll also keep you laughing.  Try to stop worrying so much - you'll only wear yourself out and you won't stop him from taking risks anyway.  It's how he learns.

Home - what is this telling me about my home and personal space?

The fool's personal space should be colorful and pleasant to look at, with decorations that reflect humor and unique whimsy.  It should appeal to the senses and to the occupant's inner child.  Consider a collection of vintage children's toys or mementos from from your travels.

In terms of maintenance, the Fool may not be great at the boring details of keeping things neat - the Fool tends to be distracted from seeing what's beneath their feet or surrounding them and lives too much in the moment to plan ahead or see the effects of what they do on their surroundings.  That said, the Fool enjoys sensory pleasures and is happier when their surroundings are pleasing to the senses.  A Foolish person may buy things on impulse without thinking about how they will fit into their space or whether or not they will need to be maintained, and once they have what they momentarily wanted, they may lose interest.  It would be a good idea for the Fool to get someone to help keep them focused on these details (or, if they're lucky, do it for them) - it's fun to be a Fool, but not always wise and it can be crazymaking for the people sharing their space.

Fun - how does this card reflect the lighter side of my life?

The Fool is all about fun!  The Fool finds fun everywhere and is motivated by it.  The Fool plays lighthearted pranks on other people without any intention of hurting them or causing harm (but may sometimes accidentally do so simply because they tend not to see the negative consequences of their actions).  The Fool is very hooked into her childlike qualities and still enjoys the recreational activities she favored as a child - playing make believe, coloring, building with Legos.  Hook the Fool up with an actual child, and she'll have as much fun playing pretend as the child does.

The Fool would enjoy adult activities that include childlike forms of expression - karaoke, performing in a community theatre, any sort of artistic activity, travel - especially to exotic or fun places like Disneyland or Las Vegas.  Actually, watch out for Las Vegas - the opportunities to gamble more than the Fool can afford might be hard to resist.  On the other hand, 'fortune favors the fool.'

Creativity - how does this card reflect my creative life?

The Fool is highly creative because he sees things from a unique point of view and doesn't rule out ideas that others might reject as too crazy to try.  A good part of creativity is being willing to fail, often, on the way to creating something worth keeping and the fool not only isn't afraid of failure - he forgets that it's even a possibility. 

The Fool might express creativity in any way at all - no path is closed to him.  Whether it's artwork, fashion sense, a new way of doing business, or the development of a philosophy or lifestyle, the one thing you can be sure of is that the Fool will do it in an unorthodox and creative way and people will marvel at how they can pull off something that no one else could manage without looking ridiculous.

Overall Outcome -

The Fool indicates that the outcome is wide open - no potential path is block, nor has any yet been settled on.  There are likely many aspects of the situation that remain unknown, and it is going to be necessary to move forward before you have all those details.  Be trusting but not naive as you proceed and the shape of the outcome is in your hands.  What do you want it to be? That's what's possible.

(I'd be interested in any comments or suggestions on these.)

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