Anya's House -- Corresponds to the second house and Taurus, astrologically speaking. Anya may no longer be a demon, but she is still crystal clear on what is important. Getting her needs met is paramount, and she has no time for small talk.
What are my basic needs in the coming year? What will quench my lust(s)?
9 of Coins / 3 of Swords
Unlike yesterday's pair, these two don't seem to be connected... rather they speak of two basic needs of mine that must be addressed over this next year. Not so sure about 'quenching my lusts' - but needs, yes... nonnegotiables. These are each minors, so they involve nitty gritty daily life... not the Big Lessons, but right down in the trenches where I live.
The first is the 9 of Pentacles, which shows a tree full of coins. Each coin has a different image...some are people (or gods), others are symbols... a three legged triskele, a flower, a dove, an owl, a sun. The card itself speaks of material abundance ... enough to secure independence... all that is needed is growing on this tree, and because it is a living tree it will continue to grow.
That absolutely rings true... I need to stabilize my income and budget so that worrying about money isn't a daily concern. And I need to put some attention to future income as well... planning ahead for later. Given the current economy, I think this is a basic requirement and worry for everyone, but this is telling me that this year I need to make no excuses and just work on this, because it is about basic survival.
(Anya loved money...she would approve)
The other card is the 3 of Swords, showing a heart impaled by three swords suspended in mid-air. An eye is in the center of the heart is crying and its tears are watering a rose that is growing out of the rocky ground below. While it is crying rather than bleeding, "Bleeding Heart" comes to mind. The rose suggests that even in the most painful of circumstances, something beautiful can grow. The 3 of Swords itself doesn't only speak of pain, but of truth... truth that cuts to the heart of things, raises painful realities in order to move on from them.
There is a lot... a LOT of grief I have not dealt with, over my mother, my father, my health, and a whole lot of other things. I've been in 'suck it up and deal' mode for a long, long time now. And I think this card is letting me know that this year, I need to deal with that as well... work out my grief, stop carrying it and let it water something living and worth holding onto.
I want to be very literal, looking at this, and consider making some time to ritualize all that I've lost and plant some roses in their memory and say goodbye to them. I'll think on that part later... for now what I need to know is that facing and then releasing that grief is becoming a matter of basic survival as well for me and not putting it off any longer than I need to.
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