External theme of the day:
2 of Staves
A man in a red tunic, green leggings, leather boots and a fur cloak stands on the bank of a river looking across at an estate. He holds a silver globe in his right hand and a staff in his left. Next to him, another wand stands, either planted or stuck into the ground. Both staffs have green leaves sprouting from them.
What comes to mind right off is that I'm waiting for this guy to decide to show up and look at the plumbing situation in my house before it turns into that river! Right now, the invisible plumber (who never did show up today but says he 'should' make it out today) is holding my world in his hands - I can't go anywhere, we're babying water usage as much as we possibly can, and I hear the clock ticking before this stops being a prevention issue and turns into a gigantic disgusting mess to deal with. He's got his eye on things - we're on the schedule - but it's up to him when he decides to cross that river and show up.
My, I'm reading things literally this week.
Spiritual Response: XII - Sacrifice
So how to bring my spiritual ideals into this situation? Depicted on this version of The Hanged Man, we see Orpheus and Eurydice. Orpheus has gone to the Underworld to petition for Eurydice's life and Persephone grants him that desire if he can lead her out without once looking back. But Eurydice does not know about this condition and pleads with Orpheus to look at her - and when he can't stand to hear the pain in her voice, he turns to look and reassure her...and in doing so, she is lost to him and destined to return to the Underworld.
Twisted tale of sacrifice, that... no matter which way he'd gone, he'd have had to sacrifice her... either by hurting her through nonresponsiveness or by giving into her (less aware) insecurities and losing her altogether.
In order to save her and keep her, he had to do nothing - just walk out with her and put the details of their relationship on hold until they were in a safer place. And she needed to sacrifice her need to understand everything and just trust that things would unfold. She didn't know that he'd saved her... she didn't trust that she knew what he felt, and in questioning these things and pressing for an explanation and reassurance now, please, she lost everything.
I wasn't sure how this lined up to the Hanged Man, but that's it.. sometimes you have to just let things hang and not attempt to force a specific response, otherwise you run the risk of your taking action being the cause of everything turning to dust.
Applying this to my plumbing problem? Keep waiting.. don't get pushy.. keep being inactive in terms of water usage (not starting to rationalize that a load or two of laundry can't hurt...). Just wait.
But...but... but... Orpheus, baby, do you love me?
